So, back to my "first day". I woke up from a good night sleep (yes, a good night sleep) fed my babies, got dressed, PUT ON MAKEUP, kissed Tristen & Felton goodbye and was off to work. Well, first Starbucks and then work. I had on normal clothes, drank a latte and felt like myself again. A new improved self though! Most of you know that I love what I do. I love where I work, I love the people I work with and I am fortunate to be excited to go back. As I walked into my office, it was like nothing had changed but oh how much HAS in fact changed. I've been thinking alot about being a working mom. It is for me. Having said that, I TOTALLY respect SAHM (stay at home mom's). I will blog about that on another day but I see SAHMoms differently now. They definitely have to be mentally tough to be with their kids 24/7. More power to you mammas! But for me and for now, a working mom is my place. I am back and I am ready to be the best I can be at work and be the best I can be at home. Everyone wins.
So, after being at the office, I came home to happy babies and a very positive Reshan (Ceasar had a basketball game). I feed my babies, play with them, hang out for a while and put their pajamas on. As I was staring at them about to put them down, I decide to sing them each a lullaby. I take Tristen in the nursery first and as I sing to her, she literally wraps her arms around me. I can't believe the feeling... then, I come back into my room and get Felton. Friends, this is true, I sang to him and he sang back at me. He literally "coooed" the entire time I sang to him. It was truly the perfect moment.
I wasn't sure how this day would go but I knew I would be ok. What I didn't know is that at the end of this day, my first day back at work, my babies would make me feel like the most special mom in the world... if I was ever doubting my decision, they gave me my answer.
P.S. Tristen and Felton sent me flowers today and in the note they said "we are so proud of you".